… Can you tell me how to b happy when all of da ppl whom I gave my trust knocked me down?
… How can I still smile each day knowing that here I am, found myself mourning again and feeling so restless, knowing that I just risked my heart believing that he would give me happiness?
… Would u condemn me if I would tell u that part of me wants to let go and move on. And d other part wants to stay? I know what’s wrong and right, I know what’s good and bad. But could u tell me where exactly I belong?
… Do u hate me coz I learned how to love da person whom I thought would make me feel better?
… Is it my fault not knowing that my happiness gives sadness to those ppl who’s been there all along? And would it be better for me to throw away that happiness for them, thinking that it would be the last hope that I got? As if im throwing the best part of my life?
… Could it be the right move for all of the people involve? Do u think its fair for all? Including me? Or am I too egotistic that all im talking about is how I feel?
… Am i? Still too selfish that all this time I wanted to get out of this emotional sickness that I have since I don’t know when? And he’s d only person who helped me to feel better each day?
… Did u ever think that when he hurt me, he took da last hope that I have in me? Did u consider that I was also hurt by the fact of life? Or u just see me as a person who doesn’t even care? That’s so not fair..
… Too much questions in my head. We r all victims here; I still need to mourn upon the death of something in me, a part of me who believes in him, piece of me who died when he hurt me.
… So please have a heart for me, this is the only thing that I could do. Let me cry, let me weep. For da last time let me feel the love that I thought was real, let me grieve. Never to criticize me, as you just don’t know me, and u just don’t know that what I feel for him is so real.
… It’s a pain for me, it would make me so glad if we never had…